I was removed from a project last week. Apparently the client had different expectations about my skill level than was the case so they asked to have me replaced.

Of course I was/am upset about this, although I hated the project. It’s the fact that I was not good enough for someone, even though I tried my best to be what they wanted — it was not enough.

The project manager of the project and his supervisor (as well as my supervisor) made sure to let me know that it was not my performance that was in question, so there’s that, but it is still painful to think about.

My self-esteem has plummeted and I second-guess my expertise even more than I did before.

I don’t know how I am going to cope with another two and a half years of this.