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In the struggle there is joy

At Andrew and Alex’s engagement party a few years ago they handed out small pieces of paper that had sayings on them — sort of like fortune cookie fortunes. We chose one without seeing the words. Mine was perfect and I suspect that it was written with me in mind. Alex seemed very happy that I received it.

It says:

“I know it’s nagging you, but you should finish that project you started. In the struggle there is joy.”

If you know me it won’t come as a surprise that the project mentioned in the fortune is still a work in progress — I’m still struggling to sort through all the bits and pieces of my mom’s life that I brought back to Bethesda.

I’m getting there — I mostly only have photos left, but there are a few other things I need to decide what to do with.

I’m not sure the struggle is joyful, but when I finish small parts of the project I do feel a bit of joy.

And while this small piece of paper is not part of my mom’s things, it is adjacent to it and I’ve been meaning to blog about it for three-and-a-half years.

Letter to Grandma Green 1978

Let’s see. I was twenty-one when I wrote this and still living at home and didn’t have a driver’s license. I did get into the student teaching program in England. J and I broke up in December of this year. Mom and Dad did not go to Maine for Cynthia’s wedding. I don’t remember that I was in summer school at Northern. I should have gone to Cynthia’s wedding.

April 20, 1978

Dear Grandma,

Goodness — it’s been a long time that I’ve written to you in Chetek, hasn’t it? How is everything? The green things are going to be showing up soon if they haven’t already. Our iris leaves are all up by the house and garage.

I am babysitting right now. I seem to be dedicating my life to others — if I’m not at the Manor I’m here, babysitting. School is my own, but even that’s a drag. I kinda get sick of catering to drunks at the manor each time I work. The ones who are the most difficult leave the smallest tips. But my savings account is growing. Slowly but surely. And I am very pleased.. I still plan on student teaching in London — if I am accepted into the program.

I got a letter in the mail yesterday telling me that I am assigned to work with Nancy Meier during my student teaching for special education. I almost flew! Nancy and I are good friends. She and her husband, Mike, had J and me over for a few evenings. I am really pleased!

Today was a really ugly, cold and rainy day. I wish I could drive. I am for sure learning very soon.

I usually watch TV when I am here, bur the only programs on tonight are ugly, violent ones. And one I have already seen. I could be reading my homework but it puts me to sleep.

J has just finished his very first exhibition. His paintings won 2nd prize and we are all very proud of him. I do miss him so. I remember I used to feel all sorry for myself when I’d think about being apart from him. But I’d think of you and other women who’d lost their husbands and realize how lucky I was — we’d see each other again.

Mom and Dad were supposed to go to a play tonight. The play starred Nanette Fabray but Dad got sick and they couldn’t. I would be so disappointed if that happened to me.

Does John call you every Sunday? Give him my love when next he calls, okay?

My parents are seriously thinking about going to Maine this summer for Cynthia’s wedding. I probably can’t go — I would miss far too much summer school.

I’m hoping that I can persuade Mom and Dad to go to England after my wedding. I think we will have a small wedding here, as inexpensive as possible and then have an open house type thing in England after the honeymoon. I’d like both sets of parents to be at both.

Sometimes I get so angry. I am back to catering to people again — I work so others can play. When was the last time I played? Christmas, probably.

Sorry about my outbursts — guess it’s that time of the month.

One of the bus boys at work got into a mess of trouble and is now in Joliet State Prison. I feel sorry for the kid, but I also believe he almost got what he deserved. He was always bragging about stealing tires and other things. The evening before he was to appear in court he gave me a ride home. Poor Chris.

Well, that’s my news. I hope you are feeling just fine. I hope to see you soon, but in the meantime know that I think of you often.

Love, Dona

Thank You Card from Mr. Topolewski

In 1974 I was minding my own business in the fabric section of our local Ben Franklin where I worked. A tall man approached me and asked if I’d be willing to help him play a practical joke on his son for his son’s 18th birthday. Apparently just as he left the house to go shopping he called to his son and asked if there was anything he’d like his dad to pick up at Ben Franklin. The son allegedly replied, “Yeah, bring me a cute checkout girl.” After some internal debate (and checking in with my parents) I decided to go ahead and do it.

The plan was for me to wear my uniform to their house and have dinner with the family after being introduced as Dan’s birthday present. Then I’d stick around and attend a basketball game, then stay for a party at their house.

It turned out fine in retrospect — although I told my journal a different story — and I had a fun story to tell people throughout the years.

I appreciation, Mr. Topolewski gave me this card along with a necklace with a dove of hope.

Thanks a whole bunch!

Donna!

Thanks for making my son’s 18th birthday one he’ll never forget.

You’re a good sport and have a great sense of humor.

Mr Topolelski

Sadly Mr. Topolewski passed away a couple of years after that. I blogged about him on my first 365 project.